Not unusually (for me), I’ve had a nagging little thing whirling around my head for quite a time now. I’ve spent ages trying to think up the correct plan of action, but as yet I’ve drawn a blank, so I thought it was probably time to share…

I love having this blog, I love to blog (not that you’d know that if you look at the amount of posts this year!!!),  I aslo love all the people I’ve got to know through having this blog, but and this is a really big but, I hate the fact that I can’t share this blog with 99% of the people I know. And there are a lot of people I know who’d be genuinely interested to know that I do in fact blog. There’d also be loads who wouldn’t even know what a blog is, but I’m not overly concerned with them

I think if this was purely a ‘tranny’ site (which it did initially start out as) then there’d be no question of wanting to share this site with everyone, but as I mentioned when I gave this site a face-lift recently, the tranny bit is actually now quite a small part of this site; my last ‘tranny’ post was on 20th December 2008

And all this has been niggling away at me for ages now, as I’ve been weighing up the options…

I could completely remove any trannyness from this site… Which in effect would be like returning to the closet and hiding, which I so don’t want to do.

I could have a ‘boy’ blog (which I have already made)… But then what happens with this site? Do I then turn this site into a pure tranny zone with nothing else (I’d really rather not ).

And there lies my dilema. I want a blog that I can share with non tranny friends & family, I don’t really want to abandon this site and I definitely don’t want to lose friends from this site. I did initially think that I’d get the non-tranny site up and running and just post non-tranny stuff onto both sites and keep the tranny stuff for here, but then Becky’s PROBO ( ‘Potential Route Of Being Outed’) rule comes firmly into play… I have two websites with exactly the same blog posts on them (I’m guessing a Google search would pick them both up pretty close to each other), the site layouts are almost identical (I’m lazy!!!) only one has pictures of a rather blokey looking girl on it… Hey hang on a minute it’s the same person!!! The PROBO is frighteningly high (or low, I’m not sure how the scale goes???).

And that’s pretty much where I’m at…

And I must point out that  I’m talking about the business type here as opposed to the heavy duty tattooing that some people favour… I’ve always been secretly (I don’t know why??) fascinated by people’s loyalty to certain brands and what that actually tells you about those people. It’s probably just my urge to be really nosey!!! Either way, I for one am hopelessly blinkered and loyal when it comes to branding… So for example, this…

tells you that I love all things sexy and shiny, regardless of their many faults and flaws am an out and out snob when it comes to food shopping, am hopelessly addicted to the best shoes on the planet (I’ve lost count of the amount of pairs I own!!!), even if they are truly shite in the winter drink far too much of the black stuff, would love to own another Alfa regardless of their many faults and flaws I would also love to finally understand how to properly use the wonderful Wordpress,  I again love all things sexy and shiny, regardless of their many faults and flaws am stupidly loyal to my Epson printers, despite the fact that mine is currently broken!!! and I will only ever buy the Guardian & the Observer… I’ve no idea why I do this, but I always do??? And I’m sure, deep down, this says a lot about me

I could easily compile a list of brands that I won’t touch even if you paid me, regardless of their many assets and plus points (I’m just not a Nokia kinda person, sorry!!!).

Again, the pure nosey side of me would love to see other people’s list of brands, but that could easily turn into one of those awful meme’s, which I hate, so I’ll leave it with mine for now… But I reckon I could already allocate a few brands to a few of my readers

After a rather dodgy weekend and an emergency call from the nursery on Monday, I’ve found myself in charge of a poorly little boy today He’s been up and down for days; Saturday he was throwing up, Monday his temperature was touching on 40°c Tuesday he was causing mayhem at home with a very stressed and tired mother and Wednesday his temperature had hit the roof again, so spent a very enjoyable 2 hours at the doctors with his bored father… The upshot being, my little monster has a chest infection. We left the surgery armed with a bottle of luminous yellow liquid that my son hates with a passion!!!

Today, I arranged to take the day off work, which in my self employed/teaching line of work is always far from easy… And my poorly little monster spent most of the day doing this…

I should be very grateful that he’s made such a remarkable recovery I guess… Needless to say, he’ll be back at nursery tomorrow!!!

Went to see an old friend last week…

Certain films, no matter how many times I’ve seen them or regardless of the time of day or night they may be on, will suck me in and keep me glued to the TV right up to the bitter end. Last night was a prime example…

It was gone 8.00 when I finally finished work (which is never good!!!), so by the time I’d arrived home, eaten, done a bit of computer work (the joys of being self employed!!!) and sipped a couple of glasses of red, I thought it was probably wise to get to bed at a sensible time for a change. When I went to turn the TV off ‘A Time to Kill’ had not long started; Samuel L. Jackson had just opened fire in the courtroom, killing the two men who’d raped his daughter and then general carnage followed. It is a truly great film, but I had no intention of watching it. I’d seen the film at least 3 or 4 times already, I knew exactly how it ended (which in tense courtroom films is often the big hook) and it was already late. I zapped the TV off and returned my half drunk bottle of red to the kitchen. Less than 5 minutes later I’d somehow returned to the sofa with a glass now full and the TV was back on. Sandra Bullock & Matthew McConaughey were hopelessly firting with each other, while over in the the bad boys camp, Kiefer Sutherland & Kevin Spacey were both putting on their best Paddington hard stares… I had one more failed attempt at switching the film off, before staggering to bed a little bleary eyed at just after one in the morning

If there is anyone out there who hasn’t seen this film, then I urge you to do so… But maybe you could watch ‘A time to kill’ at a sensible time of the day

Anorak on… This really is a fab album; best for a long, long time (and I know that many, many people really hate this band )… And anorak off again

Ok, Lost…

So seven episodes into Season 5 and I’m still of the opinion that this is probably one of, if not the best season so far (and I know that many, many people really hate this show ). I know the whole time-travel thing can seriously mess with the mind (as if the show wasn’t confusing enough!!!) and I know we’re now getting flash-forwards and flash-backs to contend with but I’m still hopelessly gripped…And as always, there are countless questions.

Is Ben good or evil? He certainly had his not so nice head on this week and was his motive for killing Locke purely to get the Eloise Hawking info? Did he also know that Locke would return to life once back on the island?

Is Charles Widmore really a nice guy after all? He did seem rather keen to help Locke, but if Widmore knows of the mysterious Eloise Hawking, who can whisk people back to the island, then why hasn’t he returned himself?

What happened to Aaron?

What happened to Ben?

What made Kate, Hurley & Sayid suddenly change their minds about returning to the island?

And more importantly, when have the Oceanic 6 returned to the island? I do have a theory on this one… When Locke fell down the well and zapped himself off the island, he left Sawyer, Juliet, Jin, Miles & Daniel well (no pun intended ) into early/Dharma island times and because of Jin’s appearance last week in Dharma uniform and because of Daniel’s appearance in the Orchid drilling scene in episode 1, I’m assuming that our remaining survivors somehow join the Dharma Initative… Maybe in a hope of changing things, even though apparently that’s imposible (oooh bloody time-travel!!!).

Oh yeah and then there’s the smoke monster, the temple, the ‘moving the island wheel’, Jack’s dad, Claire’s disappearance, the 3 toed statue and those darn Apollo bars to get answers for